LokahSamasta

Hello, Today has been a horrible day... Its only been 16 days, but its been killing me today. I dont know what your doing for NYE, but I know that you wont be with me. All those plans were blasted out of the water. Stinks, since you accepted 2 weeks ago. Just for my plans to go bust... Something tells me that you are going to text me tonight, even though you havent responded to our back and forth emails in the last 7 days. Something tells me that something has switched. Even though YOU broke it off with me, YOU were the first to initiate contact, and you held on. How could you do this? I know our timing was off since the start, but did you have to do this during the holidays? I feel like you wrecked so many plans, now I face all this alone. Tonight im on the floor weeping and hoping to get you out of my system. Im already starting to come to, and it feels good to let out a good cry. Someday I hope not to cry tears over you. I will start this New Year without you and know its meant to be. I will begin resist the inevitable. I WILL still go out tonight and celebrate. Hopefully I'll celebrate you out my heart..... I will just pick up my S*** and keep walking without you.