Dear you,
Happy Birthday...
Whats it been now? Just over 3 months since we ended our 5 year relationship... Just over a month NC?
I've been doing OK. Up and down as expected, but hey...
Still unemployed, but i've been working on myself. Reconnecting with old friends, making new ones and going to the gym. I'm looking pretty good.
I've had a pretty big set back recently in trying to get over you. I've met a new girl who is very much into me. She's going through what i'm going through. We have been 'sexting' and the other night she was pretty intimate with me... I have to be honest in saying that I struggled. It's almost like my mind wasnt there...
But hey, I guess thats normal. Bringing up all those memories of kissing and touching, was always gonna be weird right?
I see you have 20 new friends on facebook. I've been trying not to check up on you but curiosity gets to me sometimes... I'd put money on the fact that you've slept with atleast one guy. Says alot of what I think about you I guess??? I know your character and the way you make yourself feel better.
It hurts me, but i'm not angry with you today... I genuinely wish you a happy birthday.
Some days I feel like if I saw you, i'd be able to handle it, but not recently. I know it would destroy me... The thought of you with someone else destroys me aswell. Probably because this new girl has made me realise how much i'm not ready to move on.
Well, whatever you will be doing tonight, I will be getting intimate attention from this girl and I will be doing my best not to think about you while it's happening... Hey, who knows? Maybe you will be doing the same?
I'm gonna ride this storm though. We both know i'm an emotional guy, but i'm strong, stronger than you ever could of thought.
Have a good one.
x