AJ-65

I still miss you, what I thought we had. I wonder how you can be so cold and unfeeling. If I could get inside your head just to re-assure myself that you did feel something. Do you have someone else now? I dont believe it is what you want, if yoú do. You know it too. It doesn't matter though, I am not too bothered by that. It's more my feeling of losing something. But if we didn't have it... how have I lost it!

I am so sad, it hurts so much. Was any of it true?. The words you said? Do you really not feel anything?. I wont believe that, whatever anyone tells me. We did have something that we both believed in, at some point. We were planning ahead. I think of all your bad points, and believe me, there are quite a few. I just didn't let them get to me like you let mine get to you. To be honest, mine were not that bad. I changed for you... I tried so god damn hard. But you know what... I was suppressed. I could not be myself. I tried to be what you wanted me to be. You were you and I was what I thought I should be. That is not fair and it is not love. Love is unconditional. It was for me but it is not for you. I also know that it never will be. There is no one that can live up to you!!