shorina

oh god, i miss you..

Okay, here i am again. I'm weak. I have my tests today.. I bet you don't even remember. Here i am, thinking of you, im having a boy text me saying i love you, and another saying your a fool for letting me go.. What do you think? If i could ever say one thing to you, it wouldn't be i love you or anything, it would be hows it going. You made a mistake, and i am seriously dredding the day you come running back. and the day when you said you made a mistake. That day will be the hardest day, to ignore you. To act like i've moved on, to pretend i hate your guts. I don't want that day. Can you just not speak to me again? Please. This is all way to hard. I hate you for doing this to me, I put down my guards for you. I spent years building a guard around my heart, and then some stupid person walked into my life, whos just as stupid as everyone else, and made me put my heart done, and here i am. Struggling, I don't want to love again because of you. You showed me what love is, you made me fall in love. And now i'm scared of it. Thanks heaps hey.

everyday it just gets harder, everyday i just want to text you, i just want to kiss you. i miss you so much. why do people love people who dont love them back? its just cruel.. i hate this stupid ass feeling. i hate you for doing this. but i dont really, its just my cover up. i really do love you. i really wish we could have worked out. i miss us. and what we had.

six months later, im still struggling get the * * * * outta my head. please. i beg you.

she really is beautiful. but she'll never compare to me. i'm sick of crying for you. your irreplaceable. nobody will ever love you the way i love you. you should have just let me love you. im not going to pretend and be the angry ex, im not going to say your going to miss out, im gonna say, im going to miss out. i already have a stupid guy saying i love you, his trying to call me now actually. but i only want you. * * * * this feeling, * * * * this hurt. it should be a rule of life that you cant love somebody who doesnt love you back. i only want you. i love you, but i dislike you so much for doing this to me. does it make you feel bigger? do these lies make you feel like a man? because, face the facts. you need to grow up, your telling me to grow up, well baby, ive grown up, and now im waiting for you. nobody deserves to be treated the way you treated me. your a horrible person, and i duno why i still love you. i want this stupid feeling to go away. i spent my whole life building up defences against this sort of crap, and then one stupid person, the same as any other stupid person made me put down my defences. and then that stupid person left. whyd you have to be so stupid? i hate what your doing to me. dont you have a heart. dont you feel this. dont you realise what your doing to me. you always thought i was strong, you always tell me im strong. well im not, this is so hard. this, i am going to use all my strength against you. get out of my life. right now. please. i need you gone, you cant keep doing this to me. talk is cheap. actions are expensive. i'm wishing i could spend one last night with you, one last night in your arms. i miss you. i miss us. i need you.. a person like you is impossible to find. i hope she makes you happy

im really confused about you, and us. what is wrong with you? or maybe its me. whats wrong with me? why dont you love me? why do you love her. its not fair. i did everything for you, i still would do anything. its so hard not to speak to you. i miss your voice, and the way you said i love you. i miss you way you use to put your arms around me i miss you. i need you. i really do love you.

Yu know what? im done. im done trying for us, im done being the only person who gives a ****! your not worth this ive finally realised! your not worth my tears. i hope your happy, you made me lose faith in men. you made me regret even speaking to you. no, you werent a mistake. you made me realise what love was, but you made me realise that its so much worse then anyone would ever think. i hate this, this stupid feeling. you walked into my life, after i put up all these barriors to protect myself from you. i wish i could hate you. i wish i didnt love you. i miss who you once were. but, you and that new girl will never work, wana know why? because she has a boyfriend, who isnt you. he'll come back, then where will you be? alone. i hate what youve done to me. i hate this feeling, i hate these tears. i hate this heart ache. you run through my body like poison. my head is constatnly thinking about you. well guess what? you could **** all the girls you wanted while we were in a relationship? well, i ****** your best friend. six months later, and i miss you like crazy, please dont speak to me, please let this be the end. please leave me alone to live my life. i hate what youve done to me. your a cruel horrible person, and still in the end, because i care about you.. i want you to be happy. in some weird odd way. have a great life.

One. i just wanted to that this is a really good idea. Two. im gonna write as if this were to him.. i really am in love with you, i know you say that you feel the same, but its obvious you do. i just wana kiss you. i miss holding you, and i miss calling you mine. you really were the best thing to happen to me. without you i feel so empty. i feel so alone. i miss you.