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I miss how close we used to be. I realize we can never be that close again.

Hey ex. I kind of wanted to call you yesterday but not really. Ill see you tomorrow per your request. If you cancel or show up all tired again I will be mighty upset. But you'll never know that. But just to let you know, the amount of time you spend dancing around in my head lessens every day.

Broke NC yesterday. She texted back and we had a good conversation. She seems to want to be friends. Not sure how I feel about that. We are supposed to hang out Friday. I'll feel her out and make a decision. If she's acting flakey it's back to NC.

Day 0

Returned her text from yesterday because I don't want to seem mad. And because I'm generally bored. I didn't get a response. Now who seems like they are mad? Ha.

I wish you would come back so I could get a good nights sleep. This sucks. I am tired as hell!

I'm going to start moving on just like you asked me to. I'm sorry it had to end like this. I wish you would have gotten your head straight the first time but I realize it's too late now.

Day 6

She texted last night but I didn't respond. This will be the first time we have gone a full week. And lately I have been generating a little interest from other places. NC is about to get a whole lot easier.

Day 5

I feel as though we won't speak again. She has moved on. This will be the first time we make it a full week. If we can make it a week we can make it a month. And then 6 months. I'll break after 6 months. We can be friends at that point.

Day 4.

This sucks.

Day 3. Coming to my senses and not wanting to go back anymore. I have allowed this to go on WAY too long.

Day 3

We actually were in NC until I broke it a week ago. Then I was the one to say we should still talk. But I guess it's honestly best we don't. I hope he works out for ya. Even though I know he wont. LOL.

Day 2

Let's see if we can make it a whole week! Maybe even 2! We have been broken up now for 6 weeks. Wow. It doesn't seem that long but seems longer at the same time. But I wanted this to happen. We needed it BAD.

Get down off that pedistal sweetie. Your time is up up there.

Went out tonight. Replacing you will not be difficult. I love you. I want to marry you. But if the games don't stop I will replace you. G'night.

Day 2

I woke up disgusted with her. I thought she was stronger, smarter, classier, and had an ounce of integrity. I was wrong. She has become everything she swore she wasn't. It's so unattractive that I can't believe I spent 5 years with her and a year trying to get things back. You can't change someone back. Once a good girl's gone bad, she's gone forever.

Day 2. Ups and downs. Im good though. I should probably stop posting here until I get past a week. We agreed to never speak again 2 days ago though.

We talked breifly this morning via text. Basically she told me I am an * * * * * * * and I told her that I am the only one trying and that I give up. Thats it. Ill check back in a month on day 30.

Day 0

I just talked to her. She was to call me and let me know if we were going to work it out or never speak again. She called and said she decided that she couldn't do it and that she was ready to move on. We agreed to not contact one another. This will be hard. We've gone a month or two but never lasted. But I need to heal. I need to let her go. For good. Goodbye ex. I'll always remember you. But you have made the decision. It's over.

Day 1

I told her yesterday that I couldn't do this anymore. Seeing eachother is too hard. I asked her to either stop contacting me or work with me to make things right between us. I guess she has made her decision. Closure. It's really over. Now I can do full on NC.

I asked that she call me and let me know her decision. I didn't even get a call. I guess no reason for me to post here though. It's NC for good now. This is what you chose. The last decision you make in my life.

I know the feeling,I tryed everythin to have one last face to face talk with my ex to discuss the break up tell her everythin I felt face to face instead of over texts it was 3 years not 3 minutes,each time we were supposed to meet shed make excuses

 

I hope everythin turns out well for you

The worst part about it is that I wasn't the one who wanted to meet up. It was her idea.

Yeah I'd struggle with ignoring her contact aswell

The worst part is that she said she would contact me Sunday so we could set up a time to meet and talk. I am still unsure what she wants to talk about. I was doing pretty well over the last week. After her not calling Sunday I feel like I am starting over. This sucks.

Day 2. I suck at this. I don't initiate the contact but if she calls or texts I answer.

Broke NC last night while I was drunk. She said she wants to meet and talk Sunday. She needs to give me clothes and a check. She also wants to have a "closure" talk. Why? What is the point in talking about how we aren't going to talk to each other anymore? She probably wants to rip my heart out and stomp on it in person. I'll go because I'm intrigued. But I'm going to act completely indifferent.

I know you are only posting there because you know that is where I escape to. Why dont you just go back to Facebook and leave me be? Clearly you want me to know what you are up to. Lets just stop this game and start working on getting us back. Every time I say that I realize how far away "us" is. I don't know if it's even worth the work at this point.

So now is when this challenge really begins. We have now both agreed not to speak to each other. Day 1 of the rest of my life without you. I know this will be the hardest next few months of my life but I have to get through it.