I don't even know what to say. You were gone since Friday and now I have to see you Wednesdays and Thursdays for our group meetings. At first, I thought it'd be great to see you but now, I don't even know anymore. It's painful to see you there but you're not talking to me. The first night, I took it lightly and now, I don't know. I miss you horribly. I miss my best friend. I miss talking to you, knowing about your life. I hope you missed me. I hope you missed talking to me. Now, I feel sad and not quite sure what to do with myself. How long before you realize that I'm gone? How long before you contact me first? You said you would distance yourself from me to make this work and now, those silences are so bittersweet. I rather you talked to me. UGH.