Hiding

when i saw you the other day with someone new it was a real blow to me. I wanted to ask you how come? why were you with me? did u mean ne of the things u said? that we were going to get married, that you loved me enough you never wqanted me out of your life. all u have said was a lie. I loved you effortlessly, and you wont now know how much. rememebr what i had said? "I love you enough, that i would trade my happiness for you ne day." and i have kept my word. I respected your decision to leave me and i bow out quitlely, with no begging and pleading. I want my last act of love to be something im proud of, but i never wanted it to hurt this badly. I think u have been through atleasr 2 other guys, and possibly the guy i saw you with is ur next victim. But your his problem now and i know u believe in karma, so one day my dear, ull get yours. I pray each night that you understand how i had felt this past year. i want you to see what i had to strugglen against and ask if you ever regret putting me though that. You know i dont think you will ever find any one like me. I had open up my world to you unlike any other person and this is how im repaid...to sit and go on with life, feeling the betrayel, feeling the hurt, and wondering "does she ever?..." im moving on with my life slowly i know. but soon one day i will replace you, and on that day you will come to understand the world through my eyes.

sadly u will never know i much i had loved you, u wont ever see the damage you caused to me. over the past year i can still feel the stabbing in my back. as much i still care, i hate you...i have never been the same man, and i hope for the rest of you life, you feel stupid and regret all you have done to me.