Princess2

Everyone, Thanks for all the responses. But tell me, how do you cheat on someone more than once but you say you love them. He corresponded with different women sharing intimate conversations but he said he only slept with one. THE ONE that really disliked me. How interesting. Why do I still love this man. I am very attractive, so why am I accepting this. For the most part, the kids. He is a very good father. Still yet I feel as though I need some time alone. I don't want my kids to be without their father. I have faith that GOD is going to work it all out.......but right now, I am just tire of hurting and wondering when is the next bomb going to explode. He assured me that he is a changed man. In a way, I believe him. But so much hurt and anger is in me, I don't know if I'll ever forgive him. This is not a healthy situation for me. I have even thought about physically hurting myself(just to see him in pain) Stupid....I know. I don't want to play any games I just want to live. My situation is so fragile. I always thought he was my soulmate. We are so in-sync(so I thought). I feel so empty. I am scared to be without him....but I am tired of the pain. I guess I am at the crossroads.

Hello. This is my first time here. I have been married for 15 years. For the past 2 years, I have been finding emails and letters to my husband from different women....saying I love you...can't wait to be together and so on. I told him to come clean with me. He finally did. A month later he said since he was being honest...that he had to tell me about a women(she and I didn't get along) that he had an affair with. Needless to say...I was floored. It has been 6 months and I am still having a hard time forgiving him and moving on. So many times we have tried to be romantic and I wonder did he hold her the same way or what he told her. I so much want to confront the woman but I don't know her residence. I guess that is for the best. I just want a closure to this. I love him...but because I don't trust him...I think my love for him is diminishing. I pray that GOD will just work this out. I am at a lost right.