shell024

i'm just not that strong enough right now. i love him to death and can't imagine my life without him no matter how he treats me. that makes me sound so desperate. I know that i'm still trying. at least on here i can say the smart remarks and low comments he says to me, i wudn't dream of talking to him like he does to me. i must have a "you can walk all over me" sign on my head.. and to top it off my football team is loosing.!!!!

I prob shouldn't be posting in this thread but i'm in a strange place. me and my bf are still together. but really just barely by the skin of our teeth. We broke up over the weekend but after my emotional breakdown in front of him where i gave him the last bit of dignity i have we decided to keep going, yet, i feel like i've broken up with him. i've spent the day reading this thread, and realising what a piece of crap i go out with. i txt to try and make things better but even when i do that i make him worse. So, i've stareted to mentally prepare myself but the actualy breakup and i have to say this thread has been amazing, its made me see what is actually happening in my relationship... so, yes i'm writing on this thread, getting my feelings out about him becuase right now, i feel like i'm single, i just haven't got the guts or bravery to end it. how patetic am, completely rulled by a man who treats me like * * * * . ugh. I won't be txting him. i won't be chasing him. i need my self respect and dignity back.

Blueafterglow, girl your better off not txting. i'd rather get no reply right now that the hurtful replies i'm getting right now. Why do i bother. I try and i try and i try and you still treat me like a piece of dirt on the gound and whats worse....I TAKE IT.....AHHHHHHHHHHHH

your good in bed.. thats about all the good i have to say about you right now. the rest just stinks.