oh am i in a state! i have no one to blame but myself. i am a graduate student about to complete my studies this semester and i am currently working as a hostess in an upscale sushi restaurant for xtra cash. i am also engaged to a wonderful man who loves me more than anthing in the world. recently though, i was diagnosed with stage 1 cervical cancer. it is completely curable, but the news was devestating for me. for the most part the reaction from my friends and family and fiance was, well, like it was no big deal. i am young, they say (28), and lucky for me life will be normal again after treatment. when i told the news to a male waiter friend, he was devestated for me. later he came up to me and confessed his love and support for me...i was flabbergasted and grateful for his open show of support and affection. we have since seen each other often, and we have been intimate twice. although i enjoy the time we spend together i am at the same time depressed about the affair, the betrayal on my part is quite traumatic. my other guy also deals with feelings of conflict because it bothers him that i go home every night to someone else. our relationship has been brief, and it looks like things are coming to an end, and i don't want to let him go. but our lives are heading in completely different directions. also, my fiance is not a stupid man, he is an attorney and incredibly good at reading people. should i tell him? or should i just walk away from this other relationship. i cant think straight anymore. any feedback would be gratly appreciated. thanx!
