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It suddenly hit me that you're not ever coming back. It's a really sad feeling because I really thought we had something special. Something that was true and could be developed into a masterpiece. I put all my eggs in that basket way too soon. I wish you the best of luck in your life. Thanks for the happiness you brought me in this short span of time.

Dear Ex, I don't even know how to begin. I guess I wanted you to know my side. Even though I never said it in the car, but you were the bad guy in this. I know the reasons as to why you did it but in the end, people come out of these things hurt. I was really hurt. Mostly because I had really high hopes for this one. I had relationships before where I was my "old self". This time around I really felt I evolved and was the kind of person and girlfriend I wanted to be and possibly could be. I made sure of all aspects before I jumped in. I thought we both made it clear on the type of relationships we wanted. I am not the kind of girl that plays around. I value commitment. To me, commitment means through good times and the good. You had told me before that I was the "girl of your dreams", and you were "all in". But your actions does not back those statements up. I was dissappointed, hurt, heartbrokened, but above all, I felt really unvaluable to you. I really thought we had something really unique and special. Just the kind of chemistry that we have. Maybe you did not feel the same. I went through days and days thinking why you would throw it away after only one conversation with her. I told you before I am envious and even jealous of your relationship with your mom sometimes. But any girl would want to be her bf's priority. Above anything...even family. Because wouldn't your girlfriend be your new family that you're trying to build? To me, a loving mother would let her 24 year old son figure it out on his own whether or not if she's right for him, even if she does not agree with his choice and definietly not telling him what to do. I felt so judged especially after only 2 hours with her. She judged me and made a decision on the first impression. I know this wasn't easy for you. I understand and respect your decision. Your mom raised you and been there for you your whole life. The kind of relationship you guys have is something I admire and envy, not something I want to get in between nor compete with. As much as I want you in my future, I don't think I can be with a guy whose mom has that much influence in his life. I need a man who's able to make his own decisions. I need a man who I feel safe around and would protect me against anything/anyone. I told you about the difficulties I've had in my past and personally, I simply cannot walk into another family where the mother is judgemental and thinks I'm not good enough. I do not have it in me to do it all over again. I'm looking for love and acceptance. You're a good boy. I say that with honesty and clarity.You have qualities of a boyfriend that a girl will really love. You're kind, generous, and caring. I am really fortunate to have met you. Even though our meeting was short, it was definietly very memorable. Maybe this isn't the best time for us. Maybe our foundation wasn't strong enough to let a third party in yet. Maybe we need time to mature and grow. But I know one thing; I will miss you. Take care, Your Ex.