Its been about 2 months since I've logged on and thats because I've been really busy living life and moving forward. It took me awhile but eventually I stopped crying, stopped being angry, stopped asking myself why I wasn't good enough..yadda, yadda, yadda. I immersed myself in activities that mattered to me and even went to see a therapist to find out why I'd been hanging on to a relationship that obviously wasn't working for me for so darned long. Life is better, clearer and back to normal.
I did send him an email poured out about 8 years worth of 'stuff' I'd been repressing and then said my goodbyes to a chapter of my life that was long overdue for closure. I still have moments but they don't last long - I just remind myself that life is about forward movement.
Thanks to everyone who posted a response your advice was really appreciated.
Peace and Blessings,
L.