eternalmisery

I'm easy! LOL Well not that easy! But if I really like a guy, I fall easilly. I hate that too. Yes I am really overweight/obese. Even as a kid when I wasn't overweight, I was still called fat & ugly my whole life. In fact this is the first guy that's even "talked" to me in a year and a half. No one else will because of how I look. I hate how feelings are tied to looks - for men and women. No one's immune to that. Not even me.

I really wish I didn't. I wish I didn't have feelings. I wish I didn't want to be romantic with someone. I wish I didn't like this guy that I like. I shouldn't. Like all men, he wants a perfect skinny chick. Why he's talking to me then I don't know. I know I'm far too fat and ugly to ever get a guy. And I'm old enough to know, trust me on that. It's the story of my life.