Last month I cheated on my fiancé. We have been together almost 4 years. I went away to a convention with a group, got really drunk and had sex with a guy from the group. I have spent the last month miserable, but yesterday my fiancé found an email letting him know what had happened. I keep telling him how sorry I am, and how that I cant believe how bad that I messed things up. And I did tell him that I was drunk, but that isn't an excuse. I am crushed and feel tore apart, but realize it is nothing compared to what he is feeling. I want to work things out. He has told me he will try, but no promises. He has asked how I can prove he can trust me again. I had spent 4 years earning this trust and took 15 minutes to lose it. I don't what know what to do, what to say to him. He has all my email passwords, my messenger passwords and has deleted everyone whom he does not want me talking to out of them. I guess until he trusts me I have pretty much lost all my freedom. But I don't know what else I can do. I feel like I have screwed my entire life but, and cant believe I was stupid and drunk enought to throw everything away.
