I am 22 and am in college. I've been trying to keep busy... but it isn't working. I am a pitcher on our baseball team and am double-majoring right now with a full load of classes, yet I still can't seem to tear my mind away from thoughts of her. If my worlkload piles up, then yes, it takes the pain away, but work has to end sometime and I end up falling back into the "funk" I have been experiencing.
One of the biggest reasons that I could not picture a future with her is that our lives are going in two separate directions. I am very motivated and ambitious, while she is content to stay where she is in her dead-end job. I believe myself to be very mature for my age and know where I am headed. Another reason is that my family does not approve of her. They would never intervene or come out and say so, but the fact that the subject always got changed a little too quickly is evidence enough.
The age difference caused momentary rifts in our relationship, but did not contribute materially to its end. The fact that she is not and has never been an athlete made her understanding my sacrifice for my sport difficult at best. Yes, I play in college, but I also have a good chance of playing professionally at the end of the year. That uncertainty ate at her a little, and she could not understand how I could choose baseball over her.
I still care about her and want her in my life. She is my best friend and has been for three years. I am a bit of a loner, so that is really important to me... I know it will be awkward in the beginning, but I am willing to try. We broke up only two weeks ago, and I know it may take a little longer.
I've spent time with people to whom I am attracted, yet they can't fill that gap. I wish it were that easy, I would get my "rebound" and do just that, rebound, but it isn't working. Any ideas?
