I guess the reason I posted was because I wanted someone to tell me that it's about time I got what I wanted and that's what should be most important to me. But it's not. I know that all of you are saying the right thing. I did the right thing. Now I am here alone and my dignity can't hold me in it's arms. Plus, I don't have anybody to care whether I'm a guy who does the right thing or not. I guess the whole situation sounds really cliche'. It's not. I guess this is the part where now people tell me that I'll eventually meet someone better and it will be great. Sure, maybe someday I'll meet someone. Nobody is like her, though. I've never been too lucky with women. They all think that I'm super cool, fun, good looking, and sensitive; but the very few I really fall for always go for someone else. I can't have casual sex, because I need it to be born of love. So, now I am drowning in my own desire. Maybe someday doing the right thing and doing what will make me happy will be the same thing.