SadZoeyBaby

honey, a guy is not worth killing yourself over. i'm sure you've heard this from everyone, but in my opinion, the only one you can totally trust is yourself. i've already had a suicide attempt. i came out of it feeling worse than i did before. it's not the answer. he probably wouldn't care anyway. so, if you get hit by a semi tomorow, well then good for you. but, don't kill yourself.

I have friends, or atleast I think I do. They have social gatherings all the time, but I'm never formally invited. I just want to be loved so much. I hear about everything they do all the time, but I'm never invited. When I say something about it, people say that I could have came. I know that, but... I wasn't formally invited. A lot of the time I don't even feel like going anywhere, but it's just that knowing I could have if I had wanted to is the most important thing. I know I should find new friends, but every time I find new ones the same thing happens. I feel so alone and empty and I don't have very much faith left in humanity. I'm so lost. I need a true friend, but I don't know where to look or what to do! HELP!