Help me please to get past the anger I am feeling at this moment towards my live-in boyfriend, who has moved out so many times that I have lost count!
I know that I am the only one that is able to get me off this emotional rollercoaster...and to stay off for good. I just need to finally give up all hope of things ever changing with him and I, and to move on. But, this is so much easier said than done.
I have spend the past year in Love with someone that has never totally committed. We have gone through endless cycles of Love, Loss, and despair... which it seems that neither of us want to give up the fight, and walk away from the relationship for once and for all. The longest we have been apart is only 3 days before one of us can not stand it any more.
I am so tired of being hurt by his actions of communicating with all his ex-girlfriends, and the lies and sneaking around behind my back that the trust I should have for him is no longer exists.
Although he says that he doesn't want to be with anyone but me. He still will not truly try to heal from the past, and work on building a future with me. He resprts to bringing up so many things form the past between the two of us, and even with bring up situations from my past with former boyfriends.
We are again at a point of separation, and this time I would like it to be for good because I don't have a clue on how to fix it.
My problem is that I am so angry with him because I feel it could have been so different between us if he could have followed through with his words with some ACTION. Instead of resorting to fall back into his same old routine. How do I stop from feeling like I hate him when I know the truth is that I love him more than I was ever able to let him know! Why do I just want to beat him up to make him feel the pain that I am feeling right now!
