I know I seriously messed up, but I’m conflicted. My parents recently put me on punishment for about a month because of my conversation with my boyfriend. To sum it all up, I had mentioned how I was a burden to my mother, mentioned she should’ve aborted me to make her life easier, said that children are used to get money (both parents had to pay child support to my Grandma when I lived with her), and some dark stuff I will not mention here. They decided to take away my electronics, put me on punishment, told me my summer will be spent in therapy and nothing else, and that I have to break up with my boyfriend. Here’s where I need help: I don’t know what to do. I don’t know whether or not to follow my head and break up with him because I know I messed up or follow my heart and keep him hidden. I don’t want to leave him, but I don’t want to get in more trouble. I’m so conflicted