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Aa sponsor? I have had 3 nights out in 8 weeks and not drank in the house once. I drank twice a week its was nothing ridiculous just bothered her

Ive just found out shes gone back to the hotel with. Im struggling i cant do this

Probably the whole time, got worse when we had children after been together five years. Rarely drunk when they were home but my mum used to have them two nights a week and i would just drink in the house rather than spend time with her

Its my fault, i ask questions and shes honesty enough to give answers. I know i should now keep contact to children only and keep it that way. I have a lot of issues that I needed to address from a young age as to which i am currently in therapy for. I did and do love her, shes so special. Theres nobody like her that ive met before. She’s such an amazing person and i completley messed it up, never forgive myself for it. I need to get a reconciliation out of my head but im clinging on to the 1% chance she will see how much progress ive made. I dont know why

yeah you could be right. He lives an hour away from our town so hopefully nothing progresses. Although i wish her all the happiness in the world. Trying my best to get in shape and to look better She said i never wanted to marry her that is! Not me. We were engaged for 3 years r

Yes, issue for her we were engaged. Said i never wanted to marry her. I was massively overweight depressed and drinking more than average. Couldnt show love when i hated myself. Lost 4 stone since the breakup. Made the mistake of begging crying and pleading which pushed her further away. Just hope one day she sees the changes ive made

I dont know how to compose myself if i want her back. Ive been supportive and wished her good luck on the date etc

10 years together 2 children. Im 29 shes 28. Left me 8 weeks ago and now dating someone new after promising they were happy single and hope i would be too? How could a woman do this? I know i need to focus on the kids and myself thats the obvious. But just want some insight in to how and why someone could do this so soon?

Yeah thats what i am doing, ive got online therapy courses and have weekly phone calls with a therapist.

I know, she’s been on the phone to my family i have really scared her. I just seem to be struggling to keep emotions at bay. Luckily so far shes still letting me have the kids, they mean the world to me and i want to be the best dad i can be.

I have been acting like a desperate weird person since my ex of 9 years left me. Will she always see me this way now? i begged for the first two weeks, i also got drunk in town one night and was stood at the end of a bridge which was absolutely ridicolous, she knows about this through family and initally was really worried about me. Was a selfish cry for help but I shouldnt be this emotionally unstable. I also turned up to our family home and wanted answers to whether there was someone else involved which was totally out of order as it wasnt my turn to be at the house. I know im not well, we have children and i need to man up and be there for them. Since then she has blocked me on everything and told me to only contact her about the kids which is totally understandable. It has only been 5 weeks but the healing process doesnt seem like i am letting it work. I just wondered if she will always see me as an inferior weak emotional mess or if i can regain respect and admiration from the mother of my children? When i am around the children i feel brilliant, its when i am alone that I cant cope. I am getting the help i need

I hid it. I dont really see the arrangment as bizzare to be honest. Nobody can move out yet, we cant live together but the kids need their own home and their own bedrooms. We need to halves on the bills for this period of time so we co own the property and co parent.

I put a post in the other day regarding my partner who i share children with leaving me due to numerous issues in our relationship and my failure to change. We kept living together for a few days and was getting on until late at night when i couldnt help asking for another chance. I could see this was pushing her even further away and she was adament her decision was final on numerous occasiobs. I suggested keeping the kids at home for stability but both us of sleeping at relatives houses when its not our turn to have the kids. I thought this was best for both me and her and she agreed. I got home today from work and i couldnt bare to be OTT with conversation and be over attentive. I said hello and went and played with the kids while she was working on her laptop. When she was leaving she said id been cold and heartless since i came in and to only contact her about the kids. I said thats fine. She slammed the door and drove off. I dont understand? Shes left me?