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yes i have two close friends who i workout with every so often. should i help her thru the breakup? i think no contact is too harsh and i feel terrible since she’s going to be heartbroken.

i think your right, i just need to get a therapist to help me let her go, and to also deal with being alone. i feel extremely guilty for harboring these feelings, much less acting on them, and will be sad to let her down. i feel like im failing both her and her mom who has already helped me thru some issues of my own. her mom is a really sweet woman and it seems my gf takes after her dad more, who’s a good father but emotionally withdrawn. every convo with her mom is really uplifting for me and fills me with an energy i wish i could get from a girlfriend. i just wish i’d found the right girl, but i haven’t, at least i don’t think

I’ve been dating my girlfriend for 5 months and i’ve been doubting the relationship for 3 of them (we first met in 8th grade). i have no female friends so it’s hard for me to get perspective, but i don’t feel like my girlfriend would ever be my wife. she’s only my 2nd relationship, but i think i already know behaviors that make me feel most loved. i feel she filters out the nuance of who i am as a person, and she seems unaware of how i really think. for starters, she dosent hear/filters out/dosent respond to a lot of what i say, and it’s soul crushing. my comments and attempts at conversation feel meaningless 70% of the time, and it’s soul crushing. i ask her if i talk to much and she insists i don’t, so it’s probably out of her control. she claims she has ADD, and i understand that may be why, but i have diagnosed ADHD, and likely autism or at the very least am an HSP, and am hyper aware of her every word and action down to minute body language. it’s possible we’re both autistic but maybe different types? she’s also not comforting at all, and has told me she has issues with comforting others. for example when we were talking about high school, a girl who sexually assaulted me came up. this girl was known to be weird and mentally ill. i told her how deeply uncomfortable i feel every time i think of the incident, and her response was “then don’t”. again, totally crushed me. she’s also talks a lot of *** about others and has friends that do too. as far as the bedroom, i’m not really satisfied, and when i try to express to her what i want, she goes into a depression and shuts down. i don’t know how to teach her how to get on top how i’d like, and i think her scoliosis may be a factor. i can’t help but fantasize about what’s out there. i don’t have an explicit type, but i go crazy for hip sway and larger jiggly butts, and hers is not overly small, but stiff with rigid hips (i know this is stupid and specific) tl;dr i could go on and on into more issues i have but i just want a girl that’s nice, comforting, and attentive. i feel like im tormenting myself by staying in the highs and lows of my relationship, and am afraid i’ll go into a depression/regret if i break up. i plan to get a therapist soon. my gf wants to get married and talks about our future kids at least once every two days in passing. i just want to cry because i don’t know what to do, i crave the type of love i’ve been wanting and can’t go the rest of my life without it.