Its going to be a week since my breakup. Long story short, Me and my girlfriend met in university, .We were about to complete 5 years of relationship ,when she completely cut me off and blocked me on the day of our anniversary. Upon trying to contact her through all other apps , she later that evening texted me, that she met someone else and she loves him and wants to be with him, and she cant be texting me any longer & she know this will hurt me but that's the truth !
These words still haunt me and break me. We planned our whole life together, we had a strong bond, and we wanted to getting married soon. We both were in a long distance relationship for the past 3 years, and everything seemed to go good, until she started her residency, and slowly last 2 months her replies started to fade and she blamed it on the work load. i sensed something was off, i tried to put in more efforts , but there wasn't much response from her side.
I don't blame her entirely for the situation i too had become getting overly concerned about how we were going to get through another 4 years of LDR, and getting angry over late texts and used to repeatedly text her ,when she didn't reply back , but it never occurred to my mind she'd just leave all hopes and move on. When she kept me in the loop. I texted her via viber, only app where she didn't block me, i was foolish to repeatedly ask her to get back , and she deleted that app too. 2 days later i texted through a different number on my closure, and asked her to just stay as friends. I don't even know if she read the whole text ,never got a reply.
When we started our relationship she was going through a rough time in her life, she was all broken due to previous relationships and family issues ,i helped her with all the support i could and treated her with outmost respect, which built our relationship stronger and build our trust stringer
Now I'm here , with no way to reach out to her, stone walled with just the memories of her ,and the future we planned together. Everything we worked on for those 5 years , those memories we shared and built , the love and trust we shared , all lie shattered , all hopes gone. I'm siting here and crying , while i know she's getting the love and attention from her new love. it breaks me
I know i might sound desperate , or even spinless after all this ,i still want her back. Deep down will all my heart i know she's the one for me, we both shared a bond like no one else , we had a strong friendship and strong connect.
I know she moved on way before she broke up with me , and she doesn't share any feeling for me anymore. And I'm probably just a stranger or even worse in her life now. I don't even know if I'll be even a distant memory. But i'd so anything to get her back , do anything to get her give us a second chance, she was my whole life and trust 😕
I don't know if i can ever get her back , and i don't know if I'm too deep in love to accept and let go . Wish i had a chance to amend things and make it work 😕