Some say that life is best lived to moderation. I am more of the mind that life is lived between the extremes. You can't know yourself until you have experienced the extremes, in both directions of whatever subject is at hand. Since i am new to the boards i can only really go by your current post, and it would seem that you are feeling that this particular extreme isnt for you. When your wits are about you, you feel that the path you are following isnt the right one, and the pendulum (sp?) is beginning to swing in the opposite direction. Life in the end is about knowing yourself and being fulfilled with the life that you have lead. It would seem you have a gut feeling that that is not the path you feel confortable following, simply change it with thoes particular feelings in mind.
~My suggestion is to do some thinking about what you are looking for. I think that you will find that most men are a meal ticket with a hard-on, and that your values/goals would be better served focusing on quality rather than quantity. Suffice the urges with a warm bath, some candles and a brightly colored "toy".
~my appologies for any offence, but it is my suggestion
