The title says it all. I’m almost 30 and I’ve never kissed a guy or had any kind of physical intimacy. I’m not ugly and have experienced sexual attraction/interest from men and even gone on dates. However I still have not even kissed a man, and this is a huge embarrassment for me.
I am now at a point in my life where the idea of having a partner is something I know I really want. I do have low self-esteem issues, I’ve also gained a lot of weight during the pandemic due to an ongoing health issue. And despite all of this, I have decided to put myself out there and start dating again. I’ve been successful in getting matches and meeting men, but knowing that I’ll have to tell them I’m a virgin at some point terrifies me. They’re very flirtatious and I reciprocate this, yet I know at the same time they think I’m sexually experienced because I am able to meet them on their level in this kind of discussion. Though I’ve now begun to feel that I am at the point of no return.
I’m worried this will be a deal-breaker for many, and I’m embarrassed to admit it.
I feel so alone in this.