HungryGhost

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Hi all, I am seeking insight about my relationship and what I should do. I have been with my boyfriend for almost two years, living together for one. We are both close to 40 years old. Things have been mostly good. We have the occasional argument, and some varying lifestyle choices, but for the most part we have been on the same page and getting along. There have been a handful of times when he has done things or said things that make me think he wants to break up. But he has never actually said he wants to break up, and we have always carried on. Fast forward to last Friday. It started out like a completely normal day. He was sleeping in my bed with me (a thing that he famously stops doing whenever something is amiss). I went off to work but immediately came home to work remotely because my workplace was closed due to a storm. At lunch time, he struck up a conversation with me about technology and how it’s rapidly changing the world and making jobs obsolete. A little background: he is a college student in an I.T. program. I have been in the midst of a career crisis ever since a very disastrous job that I left three years ago. Ever since, I have been trying to find my way again and figure out what I want to do. So, my mind immediately went to what a more technological world would mean for me, and I started asking questions with regard to my current job, and what role there may be for me in a world where technology has replaced many of the jobs we have now. He responded by snapping at me, and I went to another room and closed the door. We didn’t speak at all for a day and a half. This morning, I couldn’t stand it anymore and finally went and knocked on his door (where he sleeps when he can’t bear the thought of sleeping with me). He opened it and immediately hugged me for a while. I asked if I could tell him my side of what happened. He said of course. I got an apology for hurting my feelings, which was all I wanted along with being on speaking terms again. However, things devolved and he ended up saying that he has nothing more to give, and he just wants to be left alone. I asked if we’re ok, and he said he didn’t know. I asked if I could hug him, and he said, “If you must,” which means no. We haven’t spoken for the rest of the day today. I realize he was just trying to have a fun conversation, but I am terrified about my future and already feeling obsolete so the panic just took me over. I explained this to him. It seems so stupid that just being on different wavelengths for one conversation would cause such a huge breakdown in communication and potentially a breakup. I called two people about it today, who said completely different things. One said to just give it a few days because sometimes these things take time to dissolve, and maybe my bf is having a moody day. To be honest, there have been quite a few days when I told myself that maybe he’s just having a bad day and I should cut him some slack. The other person has been encouraging me for some time to just move out and move on. However, there is an added complication. The city where I live is in the midst of a terrible housing crisis. It’s virtually impossible to find a place to live. To live on my own again would be WAY out of my price range even if I was able to secure an apartment, so my only other option would be to find a roommate who is a total stranger but willing to accept me over everyone else who is looking for housing here. It's pretty grim out there. What are your thoughts? What’s going on? What should I do? Any good Netflix recommendations while I hole up in my bedroom alone with the door closed? Thank you.