Ok I found out my boyfriend was looking at porn online.
That bothers me but "guys will be guys" and as long as he doesn't cross the line of fantasy and reality... I'll tolerate it even though I don't understand his need to have that habit.
Then I saw one of the sites he looked at was of my model friend. She has a site to advertise herself, no not porn but she is minimally dressed.
I confronted him.
His response: "I was curious because you said she had a site."
I thought: Ok he looked once to satisfy his curiosity. "Once" right? So I asked him.
He said: No it wasn't the first time he was on it. He said he goes there to look at the other links she has on it too.
I thought: WTF! He crossed the line. It's one thing to look at strangers but w/ someone we know???
Overall our relationship is happy, solid, and open. But now I feel like he has a secret side of him. Is he a closet pervert? Does he have something for my model friend? Should I be mad? Can I trust him?
I'm feeling indifferent right now. I'm too tired to think because it's been running through my mind since last night.
He said he's not going to look at her site or ANY porn anymore. I said he's definitely not going to her site. But over all porn... as long as he keeps it to looking only... that's something I can tolerate.
I don't want to dicatate his actions/activities. I don't want to feel restricted nor do I want him to feel that way either.
I don't know what to do. Should I put up my guard? Take my losses and run? Or forgive and forget continue on like everything's ok?
