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hey bravehearts my favourite movie, me being scottish and all.

well i have to tell her i aint interested to let it die down otherwise it will go on and on, i work in office right next to hers...

i'm hardly an alchoholic i dont have a addictive problem, i go out to drink to help increase my social interaction, if i didnt i'd be stuck in all the time, i never really had much friends cos most friends i had in my life became backstabbers etc... and i became a bit too much of a loner.... now i've woke up. And i did not mean i'd go in and swear at her i'm gonna go in and tell her to drop it and i'll tell her i did like her at one time but not now, i cant stand the girl now.

I'm sorry but you are wrong... how could i help if i liked the girl? and how else do i find out if i dont go for it, basically her head is messed too because she kept floating those thoughts in her head till she got drunk and exploded. I got a lot of mixed signals from her, things you dont know anything about, girls can be very confusing..... most guys will agree with me on this... Anyway i wont let it rest i'll be telling her what i think of her now... tomorrow at work, need to put this to rest... you are all right i should not think about suicide over this but the mind is a complex thing.. like i say i have to get my head straight and do something asap, and i doubt any psychiatrist can help me with this situation.

well the cronic shyness part does not help me get other girls to be honest.. It aint just over this one girl, if only it were that simple.

no i got through depression i'm just fed up with life basically, i can still think rationally about most things, when i was depressed it was like some other world and had 0 normal thoughts, I just think i dont want to end up older and having nobody, i'd rather it end sooner rather than later. Unless things turn around but i need to get my head into gear fast....

she did not consent but i got signals ok and i was wrong and i appologised and accepted a slapping, it should have ended then she has had worse things happen in her life than this...... and so have i.. much worse.

wait till you are 30 and then say that thx.

well its about a girl, heres the story i am kinda shy k and i liked this girl at my work, and i made my interest shown to her, i went a night out 6 weeks ago with her and work mates i got drunk and touched her, she went ballistic and slapped me etc, next day i appologised but at that point i had gave up on her but continued to be nice to her, next night out she run me down with a lot of negative comments. I had said nothing to her to make her say these things, and just the other night she started turning other folk against me, and she had cheek to call me a cretin, i am far from a cretin. anyway i also went through suicidal depression when i was 15 and i think it had a long term effect on me, so basically i'm lonely and fed up being doing the nice guy thing as it gets me nowhere...

it take to kill me?

ilse thanks for the kind words, everything you are saying is correct and i appreciate it, but everyone has their own threshold point, i aint getting any younger and it seems if the world is passing me by and i've not done enough. I know its hard for others to understand where i'm coming from but.. I need for these blood tests results to come through ok and it hopefully wont be too bad, the car prob is not an issue i can laugh that one off its the other things in life that drag me down, i've ignored this health issue for far too long but i had to do something, On the dating side what i've learnt about some girls i've met that i've mostly failed from is i'm too nice a guy mabye i should become a a@$hole or something?? or i'm falling for the wrong girls?? forever confused...

First off Hi i'm new to this forum, now to my story well i'm 30 year old and have trouble finding girls..SCARY EH?. It's a confidence issue stemming from suicidal depression when i was 15, plus i have a few medical worries atm.. waiting on the blood test... trouble passing water etc... anyway back to the depression, i pulled out of it when i was around 16 but it still scars me, it was an amazingly powerfull force on my mind, and i appreciated the help my Dad gave me back then. Theres other depressing things too numerous to mention here, nothing goes right for me so it seems.... But to now i'm so lonely and depressed.... but theres a girl i like in work and i had mixed signals from her, we went on a works night out and she totally destroyed me with verbal put downs for no real proper reason. And just today i asked her if i had done anything wrong she said that she is a bit psychotic and not to take it too heart.. then i left her room..um rriiight i thought... Then theres work well if i screw up i put my hand up like a man, but i'm annoyed at the other cowards who like to play the blame game, = idiot people the world = too numberous, if you get my drift. ahaha and just today my one month old car i only had to ram a friggen lamp post reversing = smashed bumper and dented bodywork nice eh, only had the license since february so i've a lot to learn i guess...... I feel there is so much to me that i cant tap into and i'm loosing the will to care anymore and i think about suicide and ways to do it all the time and i dont want to wait another say 5 years and theres still nothing positive in my life, that scares me more than death. Unsure at the moment if the edge is the direction to take. Sorry for the long winded thread..