blueheart19

Just wondering how your and the kids were doing. xxo

I am not sure if I am disappointed in myself that I let this happen to us/to me.... if I am angry about your behaviour ... or if it's just the realisation that I never wanted this to begin with until you manipulated me in staying in this relationship. Now you you decided that you didn't need me anymore - if you could have at least had the decency of telling me what happened. You broke my heart. I'll get over it, the kids hurt more... but they are your kids so you do what's best for them (in your mind anyway). I guess I'll hurt and be (f@#!ng) angry at you for few more weeks or months until I manage to get on with reality and live with the fact that I will never know what happened that caused you to shut down. I wish and hope that you will never have to feel the emotional neglect and rejection that you made me suffer through in the last 3 months. I hate you, I love you, I have that I love you... it's just one of those days today :-(