oscarisking

I want to talk to you everyday still - just to say good morning. I miss joking around with you and I'm still sort of shell shocked at how quickly you pulled away. Like it really was just a fever dream. Despite everything - despite every ridiculously stupid quality you have. Things that should make me turn the other way. Despite how easy it is for you to push anybody and everyone that even gets close to you away. There is this wonderful person there that I wanted more of; honest, kind, vulnerable, warm, excited, and alive. I was so excited you reciprocated my feelings. I thought - maybe this was it. Stupidly. I thought you were my person. I wanted you to be. I liked you - wanted to love you - warts and all. I hold no resentment towards you. You were kind even in leaving. I hope beyond hope that we can connect again - even just as friends. I hope you find happiness. You are worth more than you give yourself credit for. You are worth more than a lot of people give you credit for. Thanks for the beautiful vacation - our bubble. It's a good memory. You are so worth loving wholeheartedly. And I regret nothing that I said to you.