BellaDonna

Moonlight.

Babies in dreams are said to symbolize innocence, warmth, and new beginnings.

If I had a dream like that, I'd probably still have to pee on a stick just to be sure. Lol

I think they look great! Well done.

I don't know if it is just the familiarity aspect since I see the word so often in the title of your journal, but I like Rocinante' Productions.

I am glad you have a part time job that you like. Too bad you couldn't sawp and make that one full time and the other one you don't like part time.

Medical problems aren't getting any better, haven't had a day off from work in I don't know how long. Its like nothing goes right anymore.

:sad: I hope you feel better soon and that things improve. How are you liking the new place?

Sounds perfect. Congrats!!!!

I forgot that you still have to see him at work. Hopefully things will calm down soon. He is being immature.

Saw this in the bookstore the other day....one letter off ....but the cover are actually looked like something you'd design.

Nice Girls Don't Get The Corner Office 101: Unconscious Mistakes Women Make That Sabotage Their Careers

by Lois P. Frankel

(loving it so far!)

You don't sound cold-hearted and judgemental to me. You sound like you are looking at the situation logically/practically. You don't want to take on a guy that has issues, when you are trying to get your life to better place and attain your goals.

The other night I was talking to his friend Ben online. Ben is about to move to New Mexico... and we were talking about that. And then Ben started hitting on me. For like five IMs... he's asking if we can hook up before he leaves, etc. And here I was dodging those questions and trying to politely turn him down without being nasty. Then come to find out, it wasn't Ben at all, it was Aaron. He said he was just messing with me to be funny. But I know better. He was testing me. That's fine I suppose. At least now he knows I'm not going to sleep around

To be honest, what he did sounds very immature and well.....messed up. I'd be really pissed if someone did that to me.

I also worry that it could be a red flag indicating that he is possessive and could turn potentially abusive at some point. I don't get how he thinks he has the right to tell you he is jealous of you talking to another guy in front of him when the 2 of you are not in "a relationship" (due to him not wanting to be in one). Tread carefully..... I know you like him a lot but you may not have seen all the sides of him yet. I REALLY don't like what he did online, pretending to be someone else. That was pretty low and weird, and even creepy IMO.

People are probably just eager to see you get out of there, as they know you are unhappy. But you've made it this far, so I agree with you that there is no reason to rush and settle for an apartment that isn't accepting pets or doesn't have what you want and need. You might want to create a little distance between you and Aimee before you move out because it sounds like she has her own agenda when it comes to you getting an apartment. Keep her in the dark. Your agenda is the only one you should have to contend with.

Lol that is one amusing list!

^I agree. If at all possible I think it would be best if you could be on your own, or if you do have to room with someone, that they be a stranger. You need time and space to live just for you, and not influenced by anyone else's drama or circumstances.

So, I did my thing, then I didn't put the lid down. He got all pissed and yelled at me for that

He must have some genetic mutation that caused this. Most men I know don't put the seat or the lid down. When you move out I hope he gets a roommate that leave both up all the time. Maybe he'll fall in the toilet if he sits down, distracted, without checking. I've had that happen to me at 3am.

Adam doesn't like me carrying extra pounds, but he didn't like how I looked when I was really thin either. My hair has never been right either... It's naturally curly and for a long time he used to hound me about getting it straightened. I kept telling him it's not going to work, I've tried straightening it before and it doesn't last. It's never been the right color either. He claims to have a "redhead fetish" I'm a natural redhead, but my hair has never been the right shade of red for him.

 

Maybe buy him one of these for Christmas (should he be lucky enough to still have you around by then):

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It's good that you are no longer putting energy into trying to please him if he isn't doing the same from his end.

Good luck- I hope you don't have to work the Halloween weekend.

^Awesome. I remember both of them when you were in the beginning stages.

They came out wonderful.

I'm very sorry to hear about your cat Cynder.

So... I decided I am no longer settling for this crappy job and this crappy living situation. I am looking at an apartment later on this week. It's affordable, in a nice location, and pets are allowed.

 

I found two jobs to apply for also. One is a quality assurance job (what I do now.) And one is a shipping receiving job, (something I"ve had decent experience with.) I decided though, that I will only take a job if it pays more then what I make now. So, I may be looking for a while.

That's great Cynder. You sound very motivated and empowered. I hope you can make a job change soon and that apartment works out too.

and pets are allowed.

So important for us animal lovers. I forget, what do you have for pets currently that would move with you? I know you lost some over the years.

I am glad that the trip is going well and that you have already made some friends there. It sounds like you chose the perfect place to stay too.

Every day when I come home from work I expect him to be waiting at the top of the stairs.

I'm a cat person and I've always owned cats and only recently just rescued a dog. Dogs definitely make their presence known and are really excited when they greet you. I've only had my dog for a month and would really miss seeing his little face waiting, nose pressed against the glass door, tail wagging, when I come home.I can only imagine how difficult it is when you've had a dog for a while and then have to suddenly be without them.

Animals are innocent

I agree. Animals offer pure unconditional love & companionship and give a lot of positive energy. It's distinct from the love of people.

My dog died tonight... I will miss him greeting me every day when I get home from work. I will also miss taking him for walks... and all the laughs he gave me. Rest in Peace baby boy. You will be forever loved and missed.

 

I'm so sorry to hear that your dog died. It's so hard to lose a beloved pet. They are like members of the family and they give unconditional love and we get so accumstomed to their routines. You have my deepest sympathy. ((Hugs))

Really awesome pics! They are all lovely but the first one is my absolute favorite. The perspective of it and the way the sky pops out looks really cool.

^ Very nice.

^ Love it! I have to read that and also Atlas Shrugged again.