Yes, it's only 3 days since the message of the separation.
The pain and sadness become more and more each day pass.
I don't know what I should do.
Everyday it's just crying my time away.
I know and I agree with the separation but it's very pain.
Married for 3 years and know each other for 8 years.
I know we both are having depression and under medication, I know alot of advices seem so ideal initially that giving each other space is the best solution.
I am not getting any better.
Was off the medication for one week and now I have to be back to medication again.
Yes, I wanted to pretend as if I am strong to see you walk away but deep down in me, I am crying so hard that I wish I can turn back whatever had happen.
Neither both of us planned for this.
I know that's nothing I can do anything about it anymore but to let you go.
I really wish I can be independent like you.
You are everything to me, I know I have not been able to be myself due to my chronic illness for the past 5 months but we are both trying.
Now you have snapped and walk away to heal yourself which is not wrong.
I am still trying to find my strength to walk away.
I really love you alot.
I really can't live my day like this which I know my depression will only worsen my health.
I tried everything I can to avoid this separation and maybe not hard enough.
I know I was not treating you well enough too.
We know we both hurt us with words. But that's not in the right state of our mind.
Now I strongly can understand why you will wake up in the middle of the night having cold sweat and cry.
I guess it's my karma.
I am having this now everyday.
I know you need your space without me.
It's pain. Very pain.
I don't know if I can cope with for how long.
I don't wanna go take the medication again.
What should I do?
I have no interests in anything for now.
I know the people beside are worry for me but I feel like hiding away from everything.