grant345

This is a love letter i wrote and did not send to my ex. We lived in different cities and dis long distance for a few years and we were head over heels with each other until she went abroad to study and the relationship disentegated. its been amlost two years now and although i am a functioning human again with a lot to be grateful for. I still wonder what happened everyday. I still think of the amazing moments we shared, the sex and the feelign of love. I still think of her everyday. I also can see her charcter traits better now, and the person she turned into. I feel like a shadow of the person I was. I get anxious all the time. I'm not okay. I want to hate you so much. I wish that I never met you. Yet, I still miss you. In every sense of the phrase you've broken me, I feel insecure, i feel upset all the time. It's not because we broke up, it's because of your behavior and who you've become. I can't even look at a photo of the new you. I listened when you whispered poison in my ears. I believed you when holding you in my arms in the sea. I want you to know that as much as wish I was with you, even though I think of you everyday, even though I still pray for you and your family. I'm so grateful that I'm not with you. The person you became when you were awat, the photos you've put up on social media, your arrogance, your insensitivity, your lack of emotional intelligence. I can't even defend you when people talk to me about you anymore. I'm glad that I'm my own person again, that I don't have to spend all my energy and strength ensuring you are feeling okay , ensuring that you are not upset. Thank you for doing this to me now, rather than later. I should have known after what you did to me at the start of our relationshop, that you are capable of Horrors. That you don't know the meaning of loyalty. Without exception every single person I talk to about you says you are self centered and arrogant. The photo you posted of you on the beach makes me want to vomit, thank god Im not going out with a girl who does that. I could literally give you a list of 20 people who have told me that they have reached out to you only for you to give them none of your time. You repulse me and I won't be surprised to hear many things in the future about you. I envisioned you and I getting married. I envisioned you and I standing together during our wedding speech where I told you in front of everyone that you were literally the most gorgeous girl in the world. You were all I ever could have wished for, and I would have and still would die for you. I want you to know I resent you and your actions and I wish we had never met. I wish for you that no one ever treats you the way you treated me. Im proud of the fact that the only bad thing you can say to people about me is that I sent you one hateful text message. Good luck to you , you arrogant , self centered horrible human. We are not and will never be on good terms. I wish you didn't exist.