UnhappyChappy

Thanks guys.... I spose i know deep down that it will never work....i think part of me wants to protect her from the big scary world....shes quite naieve... compared to me....i went off the rails....seen life from the ova side of the tracks....just dont wanna see her get hurt....tho i spose....like me...she has to learn from her own mistakes.. Was especially hard as this is my 1st Xmas wivout her.....cudnt even bring myself to decorate the tree,,,,got all the decorations out....brought up a lot of memories....which is a good thing....cos i know i gotta deal wiv em...and stop tryin 2 block em out.Its hard tho...cos my family hate her...and all my mates r her mates....so i cant talk to my family or my mates about this...wivout them having their say...or passing stuff on....i really appreciatte the advice....nice to know ova people know how i feel....

Hello people Im new to all this....my bro suggested this site after he went thru a nasty break up..so i thought id give it a go... Long story really....tho ill try 2 keep it short....i split up wiv my ex in feb....was my choice...i dumped her....we'd been 2geva 3 years...was engaged....and had had 2 miscarriages...ontop of a volatile relationship...wen i met her..she was lapdancing....(didnt meet her in a club...she was a friend of a mates girlfriend)..that caused friction @ 1st...but she gave it up...we always had a bad relationship really...i gave 100% and took 10%..she always gave 10% and took 100%... Anyway..i digress...after our 2nd miscariage things went from bad to worse...culminating in us splitting up in febuary...for the last few months my ex has texted me non stop...parked her car outside mine daily...rang me..etc...shes had ova relationships....but she still wants me....since we split...shes got a top job in a bank in london...has started lapdancing @ Spearmint rhino and has really sorted herself out....wen i saw her 2nite...i was in awe...all the feelings i had tried to hide..just came out... Was like the 1st time i ever met her...all over again...thing is...ive just started dating sum1...and they r really full on...i thought that was what i wanted...thought id got over my ex...but clearly i havent...im just really confused...i know she will never change the way she is...the way she treats me...but i cant get her outa my head...(Hence im up at this hour postin messages)...add the fact i just met sum1 else...i really dont know what to do...i dunno how i expect u lot to help me...spose i just needed to get it all out...theres soooooooo many considerations....my family hate my ex..and her family despise me wiv a vengeance...shes the posh girl...im the bit of ruff...so daddy never approved...(if only he knew what his precious daughter did to make extra money LOLOL)...i know deep down...she will never appreciatte me as much as i deserve....but i still cant help loving her...does that make me totally mad??? I hope i havent bored u guys too much...and i dont expect u 2 have all the answers...just needed 2 get it off my chest...