Shipwreckmess

Hey, I'm saddened that you couldn't even acknowledge delivery of the flower for our little man. I know you knew it was coming so maybe thought you didn't have to but it would have been polite. I know you're with my replacement and you have to be mindful of his feelings, but I didn't think you would forget that I have them too. I don't want to cause issue between you both. We both know I knew it was coming and what you're like. You can't be alone. You wouldn't have left if you hadn't been working on developing the relationship. You used me to get back home. After 12 years I never thought you could break me the way you did. When I saw you the other week it was a shame that you used it to clear your conscience and degrade what we had even if you don't regret it. We were supposed to be forging a friendship like you supposedly wanted. Now I know you used me again to feel better about your actions. I'm a mug for still caring about you and hoping you will come back even though I deserve better. I don't think he knows what you're capable of and i can only hope that karma plays it's hand. Stop fishing for info from mutual friends and causing drama where it isn't needed. I trusted you. I loved you and I'm sorry that I still do. I can't hate you though it should be easy. I can't be the one making all the effort. It's clear you want me gone so I will give you what you one one final time. I hope you regret what you did.

No we're not all good and no I won't be the one to make all the effort. You left me, left me high and dry and got with the person you told me I was paranoid about for no reason. I don't understand how you can just throw me aside after 12 years. You didn't want to try and be friends you wanted to clear your conscience and I stupidly indulged you. I want to hate you but can't. You have a hold on me and you know it. I can't believe you didn't even grieve for our relationship. I can't believe you moved on so fast. I hate that I mean nothing to you and you'd rather I just disappeared after wanting to stay friends at the start. Why wasn't I enough? Why wouldn't you try? How could you be so cold? I miss you.