I dated someone for a few years on and off... mostly because we went to college. We were very in love, and i always miss him and think about him when he's not around, even if I'm not in contact with him, and even though I accepted that it was over. He was my first love and only love, and it was very passionate, loving, and we were best friends.... it was the type of relationship that when it was good, it was amazing.
he has a new girlfriend now, who he says he loves. however, we've recently started talking again on AOL instant messanger after 3 months of no contact with each other. Last week, he told me he still loved me; that he loved his new girlfriend, but the relationship was lacking and tiresome sometimes; that it was nothing like how he felt with me. He told me he thought i was amazing, he missed me and even that "someday he will find me."
However, he hasn't contacted me since then, and he's still with her. not that i thought he'd break up with her or anything... but...
I was trying to forget him. But now, I havent seen him in 4 or so months, and i miss him so much. I just love him, I deeply love this person, and I know he deeply loves me, but we can't and won't be together.... How am I supposed to overcome something like this? I'm 19 and I feel my world and ideas are limited because I've already found such a wonderful love, and lost it. I wish it never happened, almost.
