ok, I'll start from the beginning.
Just over two years ago I met my sweetheart. It was like love at first sight. She truly made my life worth living. She was and still is absolute beautiful, perfect in everyway.
I met her at work. We work at the local book store.
She was so lovely and sweet. She seemed just SO perfect in everyway, see we had just SO many things in common, I'm into games and computers, she is also into games and computers. I love rugby, she loves rugby. We would spend count-less hours up talking and talking. It was like we were cloud nine everyday.
Anyway, A couple of months ago, I found was in her room along. her diary was sitting open on her bed (so naturally you go over and have a peak) but what I found wasn't what I was expecting.
She wishes to be Male. It talks of undergoing the operation, taking the hormones, everything...
She spoke of fair; fair of having her loved ones finding out and rejecting her, fair of me finding out, fair of loosing me.
She wises to keep these feelings from me, but I fair that one day they're just build up until she can on longer take it and actually undergo the operation.
I love my girl dearly but I just feel I can't love her as a man, I'm NOT gay and never will be.
I'm so confused with what to do. I could and never would tell her I know. She'd be really upset and ask way to many questions on how I found out
I just want things to go back to how they were.
What should I do?
I'm so confused because I don't want to loose her, yet at the same time, I can't be with a Transgender like that.
HELP!!!!
