To Make a long -story short, Me and my girlfiend broke it off after 4yrs or so. I had the NC in for about 2-3 months, this summer. After about the 3rd month mark, we began talking on the computer and phone, Now we have begun to have sex very regulary(more then we used to) And my feelings have totally have came back for her ( I think I feel back in love with her). But i definalty do not get the same vibe from her.
Whenever the topic about how we feel about each other comes up, she gets all pissed and doesnt wanna talk about it ( "I wanna Be Single") is always the response.
I mean i just feel like im being her little sex puppet, I mean she hasnt been with anyone else, but I think i will be dropped like a bad habbit when it does happen. Im just really confused Because my feelings are so strong for her. I just dont think I can be with out her, And everytime I try to Get away I find my self saying "Maybe things will work out" or "If I leave shell definalty find someone else" or " I dont wanna loose her" or "I dont wanna loose the sex" I mean I'm even a secret to all of her friends, cause " they just yell at me for doing this to myself" and I dont wanna hear them", is what she always says. I mean she completely avoids the subject.
This is just killin me, I am totally confused and scared. And my fellings of distrust are coming back also! (basically the reason we broke up). I always find my self making up sititions up in my head of "what she could be doing" or "is that what she is really doing".
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I think this is gonna drive me through a wall...HELP!
Thanks guys and if anything doesnt make sense, Just ask and I will try to clarify it!
oh I was her first serious boyfriend also! Damn it!!!
I mean I was like pretty much healed and now I'm right back where I started when we first broke up....
