blondspeck

Thank You for all of your insight and experiences. He doesn't understand how I feel. I tell him over and over. Part of my lack of interest is the porn it disgusts me soo much. The other and he doesn't get it is I work a fulltime job, go to college and have 3 kids one is 9 one is 2 one is 1. I get up at 4 a.m. go to work than go to school and come home and deal with the kids, housework, homework and him being upset because the house is clean. He doesn't work and has all this free time and doesn't understand I don't have the same. The nights we could be intimate he is on the pc looking at porn than sleeping on the couch. Or he wants to have sex after he's on there and I'm disgusted and don't want to be touched after he gets hot over someone else.

My b/f is constantly looking on the porn sites and it is really upsetting me. I don't know what to do. I am jealouse and hurt all at once. It makes me feel as if I'm not attractive to him, that he wants someone else. to make matters worse he never sleeps with me on the couch all the time. I tell him this but he keeps going there all the time. He says it's because I don't have sex with him, but I don't want to touch him when I see that on my pc. What is soo bad about me that he has to go get hot over other women. It really really hurts. Maybe if I made a video and put it on the net it would get his attention. Maybe than he would not go there. It is soo gross why look at that. It makes love mean nothing because there is no love there. Sex is suppose to be beautiful not degrading like on the porn. Why does he hate me?