hey there, i'm an 18 year old guy who's been thru a lot of crap since my teens started, from the age of 12, ive been bullied, name called, romours spreaded about me. the absolute mick taken out of my appearance, prolly coz i was a really chubby kid. At the age of 16 i left high school, went college, it was good to see new people and make friends - at last some friends but they are all now in relationships and different colleges and im not in any relationship everytime i communicate with them to ask if they wanna link or do somthing..they like say they're busy. in high school i had one friend...that one friend last year...stopped talking to me like i was a friend...totally ignored me after i was beaten up on my door step by the same people who bullied me in school. he thort i was a threat and totally stopped talking and been seen with me. also same ppl spreaded a romour that i insulted a friend of myne that passed away saying he was a so n so...but i dint...i got so much grief off that and still do till this day....it seems as i have no friends and have never had luck with people, i dnt say much and try to be positive but it seems as what eva i do or try it goes sour...lately i lost a lot of weight - 4 stone..thru goin to the gym...improving my dress style...dying my hair and just trying to be a bit more trendy...people always hate or challenge me.....I cant figure it out...at times i even think about commiting suicide but cant coz i dont want to put my family thru pain.
n e ideas how i can like be somewhat of an accepted person somewhere...?