My entire life I have been straight- well sort of. I have always felt an attraction towards women, but never to the point of actually doing something about it. I have had lots of sexual fantatsies that involved women, but would usually feel feel guilty and disgusted by it afterwards. Throughout my life, I've had several normal relationships with men and I enjoy having sex with men, but recently my attraction towards women has increased.
I recently moved to an apartment with 3 other girls that I didn't know before, and since the first day, I have been really attracted to one of them. The weird part of it is, that she isn't even that pretty. We have very good chemistry and are constantly flirting with each other. She hasn't said anything officially, but I think she may be bisexual and attracted to me too. The other night the four of us went out and ended up in a gay club. I was a little uncomfortable at first, but after a few drinks I ended up kissing a few girls as well as my roommate (the one I have a crush on). It was just a few pecks on the lips, but it felt great. I have been dreaming about doing it again since, but I am afraid it was just one of those things that happen when your drunk.
I have a date with a man that I really like and I am really attracted to this weekend, but I can't get her out of my mind. What should I do? I am definitely attracted to and love men, but I feel this enormous attraction towards this woman. I think I may be bisexual, but I am not sure. I am very confused.
Sorry this is so long, but it's the first time I actually talk about it- much less admit to myself. Hope someone could give me some good advice.