lansingal

Hey - thanks to all who replied and everyone who read 'the letter'. Just one thing to clarify though although the post sounds kinda sad and the letter probably sounds very sad it's not the way I feel. On the whole I enjoy life, I do new things, I work (too much!) and all the usual stuff. This is what makes it all the more frustrating in a way. To the outside world and to myself my life is back on the rails, so to speak. Unfortunately that doesn't mean that I still don't miss her terribly compared to anyone else. I'm not sitting around obsessed or pining all the time it is just a fact of life. Lans

Hey - well the subject pretty much sums it up. We spent five years together blindly in love (well I was anyway) and then it ended in a day. That was four years ago and I still miss her. Two things prompted me to write. Firstly I stumbled accross an old letter I wrote a couple of years ago. I won't bore you with the detail of it but I posted it here (link removed) if you want to see it. I reread it and I still feel the same without the anger. I'm over the 'hit and run' heartache of the breakup. I've had the most interesting varied four years or new activities and new places and people. But still I miss her. The second thing was a rare enough fling with another girl recently. After all this time I couldn't help but wish it was that girl from four years ago that I was talking to and snuggling up to. I'm not looking for "the" answer as I don't think it exists like that. Just some thoughts. Thanks. Lans