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Dear V, I don't know if your hurting and it makes you feel better, or maybe you actually feel that way, but the things you said to me were so incredibly rude and cruel. Its like your a different person. I see you started partying a lot, doing lots of drugs and hooking up with random guys. I worry about you. I don't want to you to get hurt or see you ruin your life. Your not as mature as you think and you need to resolve those issues you have or your relationships will suffer. I'm sorry about your past It hurt me so much just seeing how much it affected you. I would have hurt all those who hurt you, but I respected your wishes and I knew that wouldn't help anything. I know at one point you truly loved me and that love was very much shared. I would have done anything for you, and that's where I was wrong. I should have been living my life for me, not for you. There was never "us" it was just "you" all the time. I dropped everything for you, only to be taken for granted. I acted so much in desperation of losing you, and I know that just pushed you farther away. I'm sorry I was so insecure. I know you were trustworthy, but I just wasn't happy with myself. I never really felt like I was reaching my true potential. We both felt trapped. It was hard for both of us. I came to the realization, that we would not meet again one day like we talked about. We wont get married, have kids and a house. I'ts so upsetting. I hope I'm wrong though. I hope we can forgive each other one day, and love each other the way we used to. I miss those road trips we went on, I miss cuddling with you, I miss that stupid marky mark song we used to sing along to, I miss being late for work cause I couldn't leave your arms in the morning. Please be safe and I wish you the best. Deep down, I think part of me will always love you.