I am having the most difficult time in life. As a brief overview of my life here it goes.
I have been in a relationship with a wonderful girl for the past year and a half, and we were engaged to marry on May 29th. However the week before the wedding she called me while i was at a meeting and left me a voicemail said she didnt love me, she was only with me for the attention and that I could never be the person she was looking for.
After that I pretty much lost all motivation to do anything in my life. I lost a really high paying job as a result of this, and as a result of no job I lost my apartment. None of my friends or family seem to support me despite the fact they know what i am going through. It is completely incomprehensible to me how someone could beg to hangout with you, huggin you and kissin you and tellin you they are so happy and in love with you, and less than 24 hours leave you after so much has been forged. I do not have the ability to turn off my emotions with the flip of a switch, I still very much love this girl. But it has been 2 months and no communication. I cry every single day becuase all i ever asked god for in prayer was for a family of my own. And now I live in my car with practically everything that was once good in my life ripped away. Suicide is constantly on my mind, I do not know any other option to take away the deep pain that I am in...
