jeepers

Why do you keep giving me hope that i can save this. Why do you keep contacting me then leave me hanging. Why after i delete you from facebook do you decide to like my instagram photos. I am an irrational heart broken ham and you are making it way to difficult to get over you. You are my favorite person in the world and i hate not hearing about your day. I hate opening my eyes every morning and realizing your not there. And no matter how great in life im doing i feel bad because i cant share those experiences with you. I wish you would just let me off the hook and quit toying with my emotions. It takes every since ounce of strength and endurance i have to not tell you how i feel. I hope one day i can look back on this and not feel anything and to not have regret but for the first time i do.