MsFortune

I'm am extremely hurt by what you have done. For you to leave without a single word and to have me worry that you could've been in the hospital or worse is evil. To disrespect my trust, to block my number out of nowhere, and to leave me on our date night after I had gotten dressed and made-up. I feel abandoned. I feel like nothing more than another girl you have thrown aside without even a goodbye. I cannot believe I am awake at almost 6am crying as I type this because my heart feels ripped away from someone I hardly knew. Yes, I am an oddball. I thought you were too. I worry sometimes that I am too odd for someone to care about, and for you to crush my trust and have me believe that I was perfect for you is disheartening. I told you my past, told you my deepest secrets, and showed you a side of myself that I was scared to show anyone. But you rip my trust up like it was nothing. The lump in my throat hurts. Why did you do this? Can you not feel how cold the silence is? To find out you left me to immediately get back online dating? To find out my number is blocked after you never showed up for our date? I am NOT trash or someone who is worthless. I am a strong person who has a genuine personality, love, hobbies, and kindness I know will be repaid one day. In the end I know you're just another bump in the road. But I am not a disposable fling. I was your girlfriend, remember? You're the one who asked me to be. To leave me without saying a word and block me from your life when I didn't do anything wrong tears my heart apart. I hope you get what is coming to you, because I had been nothing but kind and caring. Even when you had left me home crying on our date night, I still texted you the next day to make sure you hadn't been hurt or arrested instead of being angry towards you. I will not lie and say I wish you'd at least call me or text me saying "Oh I am so sorry it's a misunderstanding!". But my eyes and ears did not lie to me like you did. I know the truth and know you will not ever contact me. My trust is gone. I don't know when I will trust again. And for now, I hate you for doing this. Goodbye.