I'm just so tired you know? There was a time that I would be excited beyond all belief yo see you tomorrow. Now I'm just sick to my stomach with anxiety and fear. I'm probably going to take something for my nerves before you come over, because I don't want to cry this time. I wont tell you that. I want you to see that im getting along okay without you. Not that i spend more time crying these days than anything else. Do you still like me? I don't know what you're doing anymore. Why don't you act like you care about me anymore? I meant it when I say I want to run away. I just want to disappear. I want everything to go away for a long time. Come with me?