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thats the thing i have no idea and i gave her a whole bunch of chances to tell me but she never speaks up.

the fight was about me being mad at her like online. i just didnt talk to her cuz i was mad at her for not opening up to me and telling me wat she wants from this whole "thing". she was like are you mad at me. and i was like no. and she said dont lie. even online she can read me. and she just went watever and signed off

ok i think i did something wrong #-o . theres a girl i liked from the last post i made ( how does she feel ). and me and her got into this fight. she knew i was mad at her but i played it off. she can read me like an open book. so she got mad too. we didnt talk this morning. cuz she lives right accross the street and we go to the same bus stop. and we both braught out our cd players and decided not to talk the whole way to school. and i kept glancing at her. ugh she pisses me off. but i still like her so much. right when we got home i watched her walk away. i went inside. then something came over me and i ran outside to go after her. and it was raining. so i got soaked. so i rang her door bell. and we talked. i told her to stop flirting with me if she doesnt mean it because it gives me a false sense of security. and for the most fact. its untrue. and it makes me feel so bad. and she didnt say anything. i asked her wat was on her mind and she said i dont know. GOD i HATE that word . its so stupid. and i told her that i cant hug her anymore because it makes me feel bad and when i hold her in my arms like that knowing it means nuthing.... i dont want our hugs to turn into our high fives. meaningless. and i suggested we start from scratch. which was the mistake i think i made. cuz i know its not wat i want. but wat i feel she does. and thats all i care about. but i really do want to be with her . and now we're all weird around each other. ugh i make everything worse ](*,) . (you might have to read my first post to understand this one) link removed please post. i need advise on wat the hell im doing to myself.

yeah ill try. dont just read if you got sumthing to say. even if just a sentence. please post.

ive known this girl for about a year and a half now. and right from the beginning we hit it off. there was a point where we did like each other. but we never went out. and we get a long great. shes probably the sweetest most down to earth funny and beautifull girl ive ever met. and its almost like i nearly dont even deserve it. i try to get over her but every girl i try to talk to just makes her get more beautiful with every setting sun. the thing is i told her how i felt and... sigh. she didnt say anything. she giggled. smiled. and she didnt know at to say. later that night she told me shes not ready to go out with me. but still she teases me. giving me more reason to love her like i do and always have. she writes me these notes about how i left a shirt at her house and she slept with it and sniffed it because my smell comorts her. and im just so confused. there are so many things that she does that i just cant help but notice. like the way we look at each other. but to get over her i stopped flirting back. and she asked my best friend if i was mad at her. and he sent me the conversation. and it said she hadnt been so honest with me. and mike asked her why dont you talk to him. and she said i dont want to tell him online. thats stupid. so i started to hang around with her. not flirtong but just giving her chances to tell me. i dont know if its that she likes me. but i just wish she'd say something. and i stopped hugging her and shes mad that i did. i just dont know anymore. for anyone willing to even read this much. tell me why being young and in love is so hard and why this angel doesnt watch over this person.