Hi D,
I want to call you...I guess that's why I'm here, isn't it? I miss you tremendously. I don't want to come off as desperate but I also don't want to walk away from this thinking that I wasn't crystal clear about how much you mean to me and how much I want us to try again. I guess I have to accept the fact that nothing I do or say can make you change your mind. I wouldn't want a desperate plea to be the thing that pushes you to give me another chance anyway...I'd want you to be sure about your feelings before we try anything. We're in a good place right now and I don't want to mess it up by making you suffer through my emotions anymore. This would probably just push you away further and ruin our chances of a future friendship. I know the best thing for both of us is to move on but I can't seem to let you go yet.
How do I stop my mind from drifting back to all of the great times we had together? Every time I blink there is a mental snapshot of a vacation or just a nice, quiet moment at home. Oh how I miss our home. When I am able to bring my mind back to the present day it starts to wonder about you and your thoughts. Are you completely over me? It sure seems so. Why exactly do you not want to try again? Have you met someone new? The thought of you being happy with someone else is devastating to me right now. I hope someday the idea of your happiness does not cause me so much pain.
8 years is a long time.