boniver88

I really want to forward you some emails and ask your honest opinion about them: how long is forever in your book? were you like that in all of your previous relationships or am i that special? was any of that real because even though i am a guy, i feel so cheap and used when i think about it? do i ever cross your mind? what is good enough for you anyway? oh, i would really want to to remind you of some things you said not too long time ago. i really do. but at the same time i am doing so well keeping no contact. i would really hate to break almost 4 weeks streak. i would also look like a sour loser if i would contact you. i hope you are doing good, even though at some moments i wish you only the worst for you. if you would knew that, i hope you would forgive me because that's not real me and i am only a human.

the more time passes by, the more i'm sure it was good idea that you dumped me because i know it is just a matter of time before you are gonna have another relapse and i don't want to be in a toxic relationship nor to feel like i am walking through a minefield and to wonder was something right thing to do or not. in the same time, god knows i wanted to support you and stand by you no matter what. on the other hand, how could you not care about me and be silent like this. like, , what do you want from life anyway? prince charming on a white horse? seriously, i am the best thing that you'll ever come close to it. a hard-working man with my s*** together, knowing what i want from life and i was so willing to sacrifice much more than you would ever have to. and i am not perfect, but you are no piece of cake either. i hope you are happy with what you did by not giving me a remote chance to what i fully deserved.

day 4 of NC - i want to contact you so bad but I know i must be strong for myself. i miss the time we spent together but I hate you for giving me so much hope and putting so much perspective into us just so you could cut me off like i am nothing to you. i hate you because you cannot pull your together and be the same person you were when i met you. i am so sad because no matter what i do or say will make things better. i feel so betrayed because you called me your air, sun and water and in the end...i am so disappointed; i hope you know what are you doing. cheers to day 5 of NC