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hopefully i wont feel depressed for ever , no i wouldnt like to live with someone that i have no trust over i Just hope that the trust will return (mayb im being stupid ) I dont know as to if i will ever be happy again with my hubby but i cant just erase all i feel for him i have been with him near to 8 years , I cant make any decisions in my life until i am sure im not doing it on the spur of the moment due i dont want to make a mistake i cant rectify. Erm yes i have one child with my hubby he is a 2and half . We were only separated 8 weeks his Cheating occurred in the 4-5 week i personally think it was b4 that though like week 2 or so .......

Hi yes at this time im still with him, but not sure if i can go on like this i feel so depressed , also im now starting to question everything he has ever said to me im not sure if im now being paranoid or not i keep looking over things and making 2+2 = anything but 4 is this normal ..... Also i will no doubt pm you when things are really tough as i wouldnt want to put what i feel on here I think most cheaters would be horrified

hi tiger thanks for the response erm not sure at this time as to if i can forgive him, yes i am angry at the fact he has made me go through illness due to as he puts it his mistake, i can honestly say i dont think he has strayed b4....... but as u know men can lie and are how can i put it not very forward with the truth, Just trying to get through the day s without cracking up....But i do appreciate the reply as u were the only one cheers appreciate at least im not so alone now

hi im new to this forum, neede to join because i need to get all this out of me....We splitt up in feb and we managed to get back 2gether in april , b4 we slept together i asked him if he has been with anyone else to which he replied he hadnt , if he had answered yes the condoms would of come out .. to cut a long story short 2 weeks ago he was diagnosed with Gonerreah ( very painfull ) i was visiting my mum abroad at the time so i couldnt get checked , he blamed me for giving it to him to which i answered i couldnt of cos if i had it he would already have it from me... I got checked at the clinic yesterday and was told im suffering from acute PID brought on by Gonerreah infection, over the past 4 weeks i have been in imense agony with stomach problems and pelvic pain , no i have been advised that they are waiting for the infection to clear up 4 lots of antibiotics b4 they do exploritry surgery to see the damage. He admitted to me yesterday that he slept with someone while we separated obviously that part of it is twisting me up inside , but i gave him the oppurtunity to not put me at risk and to save his own neck he said noo.....He went to kiss and cuddle me last night but it just made me feel physically sick ....Will this feeling last or will it go.......cos i still love him but hate him at the same time........